I desperately need to pull my shit together. :x
I’m dropping a class for the first time ever, and it’s a required class that I’ll just need to retake too. I feel like I could almost justify screwing EAB up if I managed to get good grades in the rest of my classes, but I don’t feel like I’m doing well in a single one of my classes either, especially 1331. I need to try a lot harder and to pay more attention to concepts and start projects (running, not just compiling ><) earlier. I don’t have the natural talent to pick up on things in this class, so I really need to make the extra effort. I also need to start getting back in the habit of going to class. I haven’t been to my psych classes for probably ~2 weeks, excluding a midterm day. Gotta go pick up midterms from all my TAs and start putting exams and papers in my calendar so I never get surprised by dates/deadlines again (S&P Midterm 2) ><;; I can’t pull another Spring 2012 again.
Being a responsible adult is hard & I’m not doing very well at it. Peter Pan complex too strong. It’s becoming a bigger and bigger issue every year though since the more I let things pile up, the more my instinct toward avoidance/running away grows. Gotta figure out housing, grades, summer/senior year/post- grad plans, & boy things. Cruising along like this isn’t making me happy, and I need to bite the bullet and translate this awareness into concrete plans and action. Gotta try being more healthy too— more exercise, more water, less noms.
Okay, end self-pity session. Hold yourself to your word this time, Jennifer!!
—Vincent van Gogh (via fuckingcamilla)